Flashbacking

Time goes by,
But somehow it feels like I still stuck,
Stuck with a same person, same story.
But different situation.

I can't see his face anymore,
not even talk.
We live far away each other.
A big wall called "distance" between us.

But does he care?
Does he even miss me even just a litte bit?
Does he mind to text me with no reason just to know hows my day?
Does he want to call me late night just to hear my voice?

I feel like a fool now,
Waste my time for a guy like him.
But then I think again,
He's different in many different ways.

I know he's moving
He has a cold-heart maybe,
He won't even remember me,
He won't do flash back like I do every night.

Talking about every night,
I still cry when I heard "today was fairytale" playing on my playlist
I still cry when I heard his song because I remember how stupid he was screaming all the way
I still cry when I looked at our pictures, see his smile and point him "You did feel this happy while you're with me, dude!"
I still cry when I see your display picture and remember when it was me and him on it
I still cry when I came home and passed all the road we ever crossed, visited all places we ever been.
I still cry when I saw yahoo messenger shortcut on my desktop
I still cry when you texted me. As friend.

And there's many things make me cry for you.
But then I decide to shut up and stop showing how I love you, too much.
What can I do now is enjoying my life,
Without your care, your love, your texts, your calls, your mentions, your walls, your everything.
But still.
I stuck.